I know I haven’t been updating this thing near as often as I should. I hate to cite the excuse that I’ve been busy, but I really have!
This past month has been nothing but frustration for me with my weight.
Week 41: up 1.6
Week 42: down 0.6
Week 43: up 4.0 and one big “what the HELL”
Week 44: down 3.6 and one big “that’s more like it”
Week 45: down 1.0.
I have just been a big mess of stress with my husband being out of town for work and me starting a new job. I know I wasn’t making the smartest food choices sometimes and I know that it showed on the scale. I can’t make any excuses for that, especially when presented with the numbers. I’m just tired of dancing around the same weight for……well, it seems like FOREVER. It just sometimes really sucks your will to live.
More than the irritation, I’m horribly disappointed in myself. I had hoped to be a lot lighter at this point in the game; I had hoped to be about 40-45 pounds lighter at this point, and that’s obviously not happened. I really was hoping to be down 50 pounds by the end of the year and I know I’m going to have to seriously rethink that goal since I know I won’t realistically make that goal AT ALL. I didn’t want to be fat in the holiday pics that are sure to happen, and I guess I’ll have to deal with another year of fat pics. I just hope they don’t make it onto Facebook or something like that. Ugh.